Author Testimony
"[S]eek ye first the Kingdom of God, and his righteousness;
and all these things shall be added unto you." (Matthew 6:33).
This scripture has become very real to me. In the spring of 2001,
I gave my life to Christ after hitting what I call, rock bottom.
I was at a place in my life where I would stand in front of the
mirror and see a stranger. I had begun doing and saying things
that I never imagined of myself. I found myself making one mistake
after another, thus adding guilt on top of guilt. I did not like
myself, and many times contemplated suicide. Yes, me - a woman
with two bachelor's degrees, a master's degree, good credit, a
loving family, and a promising career with the state of Ohio -
I was suicidal. But God had placed two beautiful guardian angels
in my life - my children - and I couldn't bear the thought of leaving
them behind without a mother.
I hid my distress very well, thus neither friends nor family knew
how emotionally unstable I was. Hidden beneath my smile and outgoing
personality was a woman bound by depression, suffering from low
self-esteem, and overwhelmed by feelings of inadequacy. Though
I had grown up in a Christian church all my life, I still had a
misconception about what it meant to be saved. First, I thought
that anyone who claimed Jesus Christ as his/her Lord and Savior
led a very boring life. There appeared to be so many church rules
and regulations it seemed like there were more "don'ts" than "dos." By
nature, I act silly and love to laugh, so I was scared of committing
to Christianity because I thought my life would become even more
miserable than it already was. Second, I didn't think I would have
what it took to adopt Christianity as a lifestyle because I'd seen
others try and fail. Plus, my resume of sins seemed a lot worse
than those who had successfully led Christian lifestyles. I thought
surely they had not sinned to the extent that I had. I began attending
church on a sporadic basis, but that was about the extent of it.
Despite my inconsistent church attendance, God was still imparting
powerful messages into my life and unfolding the truth about Himself.
One Sunday a friend invited me to attend church with her and I
found that I could no longer deny the need I had for Jesus in my
life. I asked Him to forgive me of all my sins and to save me.
Since that day, I have never looked back. Among other things, I've
learned two very important lessons: 1.) Being saved does not equate
to living a miserable life at all. I have more joy now than I had
before. Truth be told, I probably act sillier now, too. 2.) Anyone
who's willing to submit to God's Holy Spirit can be successful
in living a Christian life! There is absolutely nothing in this
world that God is unwilling to forgive us for. Knowing this has
freed me from the guilt of my past sins.
Many people have asked me how I began writing. For as long as
I can remember I've always enjoyed writing poetry, but the idea
for Soul Matters wasn't laid on my heart until I started seeking
God for my purpose in life. Initially, I rejected the idea of writing
a novel. I knew I could write poetry, and even plays if need be,
but I thought novels were out of my league. I had tried writing
another story once, but later abandoned the idea after the first
two chapters. After several failed attempts to make Soul Matters
a play instead of a book, I finally submitted to God's will and
began writing this novel.
I thank God for all of the support I received from my husband,
and several close friends and family members along the way. Even
though I had loads of encouragement, the key to my being able to
successfully complete Soul Matters was having a pure heart. I wasn't
seeking fame or fortune. My deepest desire was to write a realistic,
entertaining story that shared a message about God with others.
When I started writing, I had absolutely no idea how it would get
published. I didn't even know there was a market for Christian
fiction. Still, I stepped out on faith and invested time and money
into a story that kept pressing on my heart. Once I did, I saw
God open doors of opportunities that I never imagined. Denise Stinson
(owner/publisher of Walk Worthy Press) saw information about Soul
Matters printed in a report written by The Writer's Edge (a screening
company), and contacted me. I sent her a copy of my manuscript
and by that next week, was offered an opportunity to become a Walk
Worthy author. I went from not knowing there was a market for Christian
fiction to being signed with the leading publisher of the genre.
What an awesome blessing!
Whether you're a Christian or non-Christian, Soul Matters was
written with you in mind. I hope you enjoy and are blessed by the
content found within its pages. Thank you for allowing me a chance
to deposit something positive into your lives. May God continually
bless you!
Yolonda Tonette Sanders
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