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Testimony
I don't really know if some people understand what that really
means or even the power of having one. To even carry a testimony
proves that a person has gone through a trying time, and unbearable
trial or struggle in their life and they not only lived through
it, but with great confidence, can square their shoulders, hold
their head back, and shout with a loud voice, "I Survived
it!"
Often times you find yourself in a place that you never thought
you'd be. I never had plans to be a failure in life, taking detours
and turns down roads that never were scheduled. As a little girl
with pig tails in my hair, I don't remember saying, "When
I grow up I want to be a loser, live a life without purpose. Yeah,
I want to fall in sexual traps with men who take advantage of me
and violate me as a woman, lose respect for myself…and yeah,
I'll just take on a life without meaning."
No, I wanted my life to be significant but the roads I chose in
my attempt to get this meaningful life proved to be the blueprint
for failure. My life began to spiral in a web of sexual confusion
as I attempted to find myself in somebody else's arms. I started
looking for love to cover up wounds from broken childhood experiences
and emotional holes that were never filled. The more I searched
to find love in men, the relationships only proved to be escapism
to cover up the deep-rooted, layers of pain inside of me.
Nothing hurts as bad as looking in a mirror and seeing nothing.
I came to the realization that I lost who I was, trying to find
me. But how do you get back, how do you find ‘you' underneath
all the layers? What do you do when you are so lost, that you can't
find your way? I was so far gone, that God had to come and get
me! My family and friends couldn't help and certainly the relationships
I found myself in proved they couldn't. I was so torn on the inside,
that I felt there was nothing left of me and the only way that
I was ever going to get out of this mess I've gotten myself into
was for God to save me from me!
I was too caught up to run to God, so He came and got me, pulled
me out of my misery, the shame, the guilt and the pain and He began
to fill the void that was in my life. He took what was hurting
away and replaced it with Him. I mean my life took a 360, the crooked
roads became straight again, and before I knew it, I looked in
the mirror and finally found me. I finally found the love that
I was missing.
And there may be many of you who have found yourself in the same
position, in a place in your life where you never wanted to be,
a detour. But I don't care how long you've been off track, and
how far you deviated from God's original plan for your life. I
don't care even if you've found yourself in a dead end, God can
come in and reconstruct your life and get you out of any situation
that you are in. I don't care how bad you've messed things up;
I'm a living witness that God can take your mess and turn it into
a MESSAGE!
Never confuse your past with your future! In spite of all the
things I've gone through, God never gave up on me. In fact, He
never used it against me, but with the adversity, the trials in
life that I went through, became my testimony. He used those very
things to bring me to the life He always planned for me. He took
the very thing that tried to overtake me, the very mess that I
put myself into, and turned it into a message! Now my life is an
open book of hope to others who have gone through the test and
trials of life. As a world renowned best selling author, motivational
speaker, and Evangelist, my writings become an expression of God's
love, His Grace, and His Forgiveness. It documents that yes, I
went through it, but my adversity, my test didn't end there, but
because of God, it became my testimony!
And from one Survivor to Another, "Going through proves that
you are not stuck there! But trust that God will bring you out
of that situation with a testimony, and with boxed shoulders, you'll,
too, pull your head back and say, I Survived It!"
Because of God,
Ty Adams
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